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So I found a guy who thinks I'm awesome and wants to be my boyfriend and gets along with my friends who have met him... And I'm kind of terrified. Something is really bothering me about the situation, and I can't seem to pin down what it is. I think he reminds me enough of my first boyfriend that I'm bristling like he's the same person, which is unfair and kind of crazy. I think I've had enough bad experiences that I'm now gun-shy about even getting into it again. I don't know what else might be holding me up, and not knowing means it's lurking around in my brain, making me twitchy And making me feel entirely insane. I feel like I've forgotten something important, or done something wrong, or repressed something I need to remember.

Maybe it's just my hormones? Maybe it'll pass? I don't know. BUt I'm already sick of it and I feel dumb even saying anything out loud (even all type-y like this), but that's where I am.

Maybe I'm just a wreck pretending to be a functional adult?

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reimagination
Aug. 16th, 2010 07:05 pm (UTC)
I'm sorry, but I'm going to need a much better update that includes pictures and diagrams... and a dancing lobster gif.
reimagination
Aug. 16th, 2010 07:08 pm (UTC)
rutabaga
heathencorp
Aug. 16th, 2010 11:36 pm (UTC)
bwahahahaha!
sillymouka
Aug. 16th, 2010 10:50 pm (UTC)
there's nothing wrong with going slow till you figure out how you feel and what you want. if he really is interested in you he will understand if you are not ready for a relationship with someone you just met. also you are awesome and anyone with half a brain should be able to see that.
emmakulate
Aug. 17th, 2010 02:58 pm (UTC)
Don't feel bad for feeling how you feel! Your brain is probably trying to tell you something. For example, when Will and I got together I felt similar early on because I knew it was special/important/big. Maybe this is your brain saying that even if you don't continue to date this guy he's going to be in your life in some capacity.

I tried to rationalize with my brain was being stupid, and it said "suck it" so I recommend just having fun. If something happens, it was meant to happen, just enjoy yourself. You have hella stress in your life so why not just hang out and let go a little.
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